denver

self

Sun, 07 Sep 2003 17:56:44 GMT

sometimes i wonder how you remember my name

why am i dealing with this feeling?

Fri, 30 May 2003 18:39:42 GMT

i want things to change but i realize that they won't
history repeats itself and people stay the same

sad but funny

Wed, 12 Feb 2003 05:15:03 GMT

//your day is not complete until your baby brother sticks a magnetic game piece up his nose and your grandma has to come and get it out with a screwdriver//

gotta love the holidays

Sun, 15 Dec 2002 19:49:51 GMT

what's better then family weekends.....all the other weekends that aren't family ones....so we were supposed to take family x-mas picks at 11...it is now almost 12 and eveyone is angry and irritated.i want to leave but i know they will notice eventually and get even more angry.

Mon, 25 Nov 2002 19:13:44 GMT

I WANT: to be happy
I REGRET: almost everything i have done
I WISH: i could move and start over
I LOVE: doing bad things
I HATE: who i have become
I MISS: my childhood
I FEAR: people i love leaving me
I SEE: when my eyes are open
I HEAR: selectivly
I SEARCH: for things i've lost
I WONDER: why things are the way they are
I KNOW: all
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
SMILED? when my brother stood up and hit his head on the table...crazy kid
DANCED? lastnight
GOT HAMMERED? too long ago
KISSED SOMEONE? your mom last night
HUGGED SOMEONE? this morning
HAD A NIGHTMARE? i don't remember
LAST THING YOU READ: the mini hot dog heating instructions
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW ON THE BIG SCREEN: ghost ship...pretty lame huh?
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: the drunk guys cell
LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED ON TV: spongebob
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: queens on the stone age-no one knows
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: sweet sweet juice
LAST THING YOU ATE: cold fries
DO YOU...
SMOKE? nopers just 2nd hand
SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS? yeah scooby and my 1 and only bunny
HAVE A CRUSH? yup but i don't think they like me
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? nope i have a hard time attracting the opp sex
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? yeah i have a couple dreams that keep coming back
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE? yeah well if it was love
STILL LOVE HIM/HER? sadly yes
READ THE NEWSPAPER? sometimes
HAVE ANY GAY OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? yup yup and they always hit on me...u know who u are
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? sometimes
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? yeah i guess
CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS? i have a high tolerance level
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL? i don't like the taste i like what it does
BELIEVE IN GOD? yes
HAVE ANY SECRETS? if i tell u i'll have to kill u
HAVE ANY PETS? sure do
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO UNIVERSITY? hopefully
HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? yeah and i want more
HAVE ANY TATOOS? nopers
HATE YOURSELF? ummm..sometimes..umm...all the time
HAVE A BEST FRIEND? yes mama lilaface
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS? Yes
CARE ABOUT LOOKS? yes i'm shallow, but i don't really give a shit what i look like
TRUST OTHERS EASILY? yes i wish i didn't though
LIKE SARCASM? yuppers especially when i'm dishing it out
TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN? i love the rain
KISS WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED? sometime i peek then i shut them again cause there face is all up in mine
SING IN THE SHOWER? heehee yeah
HAVE ANY SCARS? yeah damn belly piercing

MMmmm......guilt pleasure

Fri, 08 Nov 2002 18:52:22 GMT

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*this isn't me. i just wanted a pic of him.....i love him in this movie*

eh

Mon, 07 Oct 2002 01:19:01 GMT

i want to fall for you
but i ask myself
will you break my fall
i wan't to throw myself at you
but i ask again
will you try to catch me at all
i run from the idea of you
but you
you chase me down
i once loved you
but your immaturity I found
made me angry
i tried to hide from you
but you found me out
you found me out
i'm all about
this is all about
my reactions to attractions

yeah, i kinda miss it : (

Wed, 18 Sep 2002 03:14:29 GMT

Your Secret Fetish Is BDSM!

Tie me up! Tie me down!

Whether you're doing the tying, or doing the crying, you love BDSM.

For you, love hurts- and sex hurts even more.

So make that spanking a little harder. The more you bleed, the more you come.

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Mon, 02 Sep 2002 18:07:46 GMT

BAD:
-school starts tom. :(
-it's gonna be a 112 degrees 2day :(
-i'm babysittin :(
-i can't really write what i want in my journal because i don't know who reads it:(
-last night was a bust well almost :(
GOOD:
-we know where the real house is(thanks to brian):)
-we found a new spot to chill:)

another bed time story for the kiddies

Thu, 29 Aug 2002 19:52:42 GMT

At the 1994 annual awards dinner given for Forensic Science, AAFS President Dr. Don Harper Mills astounded his audience with the legal complications of a bizarre death.

Here is the story :

On March 23, 1994 the medical examiner viewed the body of Ronald Opus and concluded that he died from a shotgun wound to the head. Mr. Opus had jumped from the top of a ten-story building intending to commit suicide. He signed a note to the effect indicating his despondency and intention. As he fell past the ninth floor his life was interrupted by a shotgun blast which passed through a window, resulting in his instantaneous death. Neither the shooter nor the deceased was aware that a safety net had been installed just below the 8th floor level to protect some building workers, and, therefore, Ronald Opus would not have been able to complete his suicide the way he had planned. "Ordinarily," Dr. Mills continued, "A person who sets out to commit suicide and ultimately succeeds, even though the means or mechanism might not be what he intended, is still defined as committing suicide. The fact that Mr. Opus was shot on the way to certain death, but probably would not have been successful because of the safety net, caused the medical examiner to feel that he had a homicide on his hands. The room on the ninth floor, where the shotgun blast emanated, was occupied by an elderly man and his wife. They were arguing vigorously and he had been threatening her with a shotgun. The husband was so upset that when he finally pulled the trigger he completely missed his wife and the pellets exited through their window striking Mr. Opus. When one intends to kill subject "A", but kills subject "B" in the attempt, one is guilty of the murder of subject "B." When confronted with the murder charge, the old man and his wife were stunned and adamant, and both said that they thought the shotgun was unloaded. The old man said it was a long-standing habit to threaten his wife with the unloaded shotgun. He had no intention of murdering her. Therefore the killing of Mr. Opus appeared to be an accident; that is, if the gun had actually been accidentally loaded. The continuing investigation turned up a witness who saw the old couple's son loading the shotgun about six weeks prior to the fatal accident. It transpired that the wife had recently cut off her son's financial support and the son, knowing the propensity of his father to use the shotgun threateningly, decided to load the shotgun with the expectation that his father would shoot his mother. Since the loader of the gun was aware of this, he was guilty of the murder even though he didn't actually pull the trigger. The case now becomes one of murder on the part of the son for the death of Ronald Opus. Now, Dr. Mills offers the exquisite twist to this case. Further investigation ironically revealed that the name of the couple's son was........Ronald Opus. In addition to losinghis "financial" security, he had become even more despondent over the obvious failure of his attempt to engineer his mother's murder. This led him to jump off the ten story building on March 23rd, only to be killed by a shotgun blast passing through the ninth story window. Since the son had actually murdered himself (according to the law), the medical examiner closed the case as a suicide.
A true story from Associated Press, Reported by Kurt Westervelt.

juice is good

Tue, 27 Aug 2002 19:16:30 GMT

Alright
i'm uncomfortable with myself, and your put-downs just do not help. the outcome is i feel like shit. don't you know when to quit? and i am not doing alright... i always end up feeling bad. so why don't you get off my back? if i knew that this is what friends were for, i'd never made any. none of this makes sense, they don't support me because they're too busy judging. it's all so unimportant. it makes me feel sorry for them.
-osker

fun are parties

Sun, 25 Aug 2002 07:55:24 GMT

yesturday i went to a party, but i won't discuss that one cause everyone that reads my lj was there..i think. today i went to my tia's b-day party. i missed out on christian's cause of it sorry christian :(. it was at a bar and i can't drink...oh well. my tia was so surprised that she started crying. everybody was teary eyed. then my uncle gave a speech and i felt like crying, and then i spilt my soda. my uncle made me shake my ass on the dance floor. i feel sorry for everyone that had to witness that.
i hate babysitting...with a passion..it's stupid...if the kids were older it would be ok but these kids still shit their pants and i can't understand a word they say. i feel like i am being held hostage by the little midgets....oh well it is good birth control.

big breasteses in tight vesteses

Tue, 20 Aug 2002 19:33:23 GMT

yesturday night was stellar. there were thrills and chills, danger at every turn, wild animals, strangers lurking about and even some blood. oh yeah we rock...hard...hardcore.

today i woke up before the sun came up and stood in line for a long time just for a 5 min. interview. if i don't get the job i'm gonna be pissed yo.

i stay up past my bedtime..i don't take my vitamins..whateva whateva

Sat, 17 Aug 2002 17:29:21 GMT

i was gonna tell u about yesturday, but i'm lazy and u can go to lila's lj and read it. oh..she forgot to put in the part about returning to the crack house at night and throwing rocks at it. i can't wait until our next adventure. it's gonna be the adventure of green mist also featuring return of the crack house (we are gonna visit the gun welding gang bangers while they sleep)

HeRe Is A nIcE bEdTiMe StOrY fOr YoU kidDIES

Billy loved Monroe with all his heart. But he never told a
single soul.
Monroe secretly loved him too. But she thought she would
never have a
chance with him. Billy asked his friends what they think of
her and his
friends thought she was gay. They didn't like her at all.
So Billy just
went along with them.
They all made fun of her and made her feel really bad. Monroe
was so upset.
One day they followed her home from school making fun of her
the whole way
home. Once she got inside her house she dropped to the
floor crying.
She had a crush on Billy since 3rd grade. She didn't
know what to do.
When Billy got home he felt real bad about what he had done.
So he decided
to go to Monroe's house to tell her he was sorry and that he
really loves
her. When he got there he knocked on the door no one
answered. The door
was open so he walked in. He walked into the living room
and found Monroe
lying dead on the floor. She had slit her wrists. Billy
was so upset. He
knew it was his fault she killed herself. And now he could
never tell her how he really felt.
*something to think about*

Your Emotions

Tue, 13 Aug 2002 19:28:45 GMT

Your mommy told you this
And your daddy told you
Always think like this
And never do that
You learned so many feelings
But what is there to that
Which are really yours
Or are you just a copycat
You're so boring boring boring
Always tape machine recording
You're so boring boring boring
I've heard all this before
Planless and mindless
Scraps from anywhere
Bunch of used parts
From garbage pails everywhere
Frankenstein became a monster
Just like you
Your scars only show
When someone talks to you
You're so boring boring boring....
I've heard all this before
Your emotions make you a monster
-Words and Music by East Bay Ray

marrige for the last name

Sat, 10 Aug 2002 17:59:04 GMT

What obscure band are you?

*oh yeah.....i rock...hardcore...i'm gonna marry julian so i can be mrs. casablancas. then i will divorce him and keep the last name.*

tastes like prevention

Thu, 08 Aug 2002 05:26:34 GMT

the other day i went to the happiest place on earth. my siblings wanted to go to tom sawyer's island and i didn't want to be left alone w/ my uncle( he isn't really my uncle) who acts like we are married so i decided to walk around. i was lookin around and i saw this attractive young man (he was not my type though). he was alone and i wondered if he was gonna meet up with someone so i followed him. i think he knew i was following him but my curiosity kept me at it. he eventually got on a ride and i had to go back to my family. i eventually saw him again and he was still alone. i wanted to follow him again but we had to leave. instead of being a people watcher i follow them. it is more interesting because you can only watch people until they leave but if you follow them you can see more.

*lila, christian and i had a dye our hair party and we all look stellar...oh yeah we rock...hardcore..fun fun*

i can't wait for the show. i love goin to shows..they are better than sex..well maybe...sometimes...

true friendship

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 02:01:38 GMT

placewereubelong: ...hahha>:oshut up !!
obesethoughts: no:-D
placewereubelong: when im talkin to you ....you best shut up
placewereubelong: if you knows whats good fo you
obesethoughts: no u didn't.......u got beef cause im the butcher
placewereubelong: well then gimme a lb of bitch shut up

it's your destiny cause it runs in the family

Sat, 03 Aug 2002 21:13:01 GMT

i'm bleeding misery
oh, eternal discontent-how consistent
the only thing stable in my life is how i try....
to still this beating mind,
so that i can finally rest
the essence of my character
is that i'm unable to be without worrying
the words of dead humans seem so much sincere
than the half-signed contracts
that tend to occupy the open air
still this beating mind,
so that i can finally rest
the essence of my character
is that i'm unable to be without worrying
-osker

update

Wed, 31 Jul 2002 05:22:04 GMT

-I keep thinking about how happy i was last year at this time. i should stop doing that.

-the play is..well....um...yeah.....a boy put my make-up on and that was such a turn on

-people walking out of my life makes me sad

-i want to change my hair it's to plain

Why?

Sat, 27 Jul 2002 18:25:56 GMT

" i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black "

Watch out for the yellow jeep

Fri, 26 Jul 2002 05:38:59 GMT

Why are you still in my eye?
Will your memory ever die?
-Ozma

i've almost died many times since monday
at my own hand
not a suicide but a car ride

why do u do this to me?

Tue, 23 Jul 2002 04:17:15 GMT

two wrongs don't make a right
that's why i did it more than two times
something wrong can't be right
but you are the right kind of wrong
that just might be the end of me
i recieved a gift today
that you gave to me once befor
it made me feel like feeling
the promise was no more

i'm a driver now..yay and this weekend i got a shiny new aunt.

the bordom eats my flesh

Wed, 17 Jul 2002 00:42:15 GMT

"fashion makes people want to have sex."

i'm magenta not lila

Tue, 09 Jul 2002 05:53:30 GMT

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